the longest week..

its been 5 long long days and yet I still don't feel any better.

it all started Saturday when I broke out in intense chills and couldn't get warm. I had just gotten back from a wonderful beach day in Durban with the other South African SALTers and right when I walked into my house I felt terrible. Terrible isn't an exaggeration either. I've never felt worse in my life. After taking a bath to try and keep warm I realized I had a huge fever and just needed to sleep- what was wrong with me? Sunday came and I didn't go to church (which I really really wanted too) and by 5pm that night my fever hadn't broken and my pain still hadn't gone away so we headed to the hospital. After a few tests I was reassured it was a bad case of the flu and was told to take the week off- she gave me a few injections and some medicine and was told to rest. Since Saturday night- I really haven't gotten out of bed. Nor have I had the energy to do anything at all. It's been a rough week.

Honestly, it has sucked. I miss home. I want my own bed when I'm sick and I want the comfort of putting in my favourite movies and snuggling up on the couch. I'm grumpy and annoyed with my body. I miss the kids at the boarding house and I hate that once I finally get into routine things always seem to change. I would get up to go to the bathroom and that would be a huge task that I would feel tired enough to take a nap again. I have a doctor's appt. this afternoon to make sure life is good again! I'll keep you updated if things go sour again. My breathing is something that I've been worried about. I can't really take a deep breath in and my puffer isn't much help. My breathing is really good today so hopefully I'm on the recovery on whatever I had.

This week I was suppose to head to camp with the Grade 6's and 7's and it broke my heart to call in sick and tell them that this will not be happening. I am not one for camping (its in cabins) but the opportunity to spend with these kids and here their hearts and get to know them better would have been amazing- I am so sad I missed it. Also there is another wedding that I could have helped with on Saturday that I will be missing also. It all just sucks. Why do I need to get sick on a week like this!

Anyways, I'm done ranting for now! Things that I can look forward to are:

- Sometime in November the South African SALTers are heading to Lestho (another country!) to visit the two SALTers there and do some manual labour-eeeekkkkk! But I am so excited. That will be one of these weeks in November
- December 8 is when I am off school and the boarding house closes down. This means that for the month of December pretty much until early January I will be with the Pennels and celebrating Christmas with them! Because of the seasons and how hot it is here there is no way that I think Christmas is coming up- it will be such an interesting experience. Also 3 children will be leaving the boarding house on December 8 because they are heading to Grade 8 (highschool) and one is moving to Capetown. Subtract my week away in Lestho that means I only have 4 more weeks with these kids- tear tear. I am so sad thinking about that!

I've been reminded of this song from Hillsong called Desert. Part of the song goes:

"All of my life
In every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship"

In this "sick season" of my life God is still God and yes, I have a reason to worship.

lots of love



  1. I love you baby girl and I hope you get better real soon!

  2. Oh Maddie, so sorry to hear of all the 'heat' you've been challenged with. Jerm. 17 5-ff is so beautifully demonstrated in the way you are handling your trials - keep it up Maddie girl! You are a wonderful inspiration to many! Lots of Love, WB


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