10.05.2011

Reality

I was starting to get use to the barbed wire and fences.

Now, fear has filled my mind again and my emotions are high.

Crime is a huge part of South Africa. Coming to this service trip I had the full head knowledge of that. I always said the one thing I would never loose here is my laptop because it has everything on it. I have been super anal about protecting my things. When I boiled water in the room beside me yesterday morning I hid my laptop (just in-case someone would have the nerve to steal from an NGO). I lock my door every time I head to the washroom or get a drink (even if it's for a minute) I want to be safe and I to feel safe.

Yesterday afternoon the offices were full of people and I had gone out of my office for less than 30 seconds with my laptop still sitting on my desk. There were 3 people within a 5 meter radius of my office. Do you really think it would be possible to run in and get my laptop, memory stick (with my pictures on it) and my cell phone. As I was walking back into my office they were walking out. Immediately I knew they had snatched my laptop and the security guards and police were called right away. We jumped in a car and tried to follow them. They had under a minute head start... how did they manage to get away?

After an hour of driving in the car and the police stopping one man, we gave up. But by that point they could be anywhere. I am very upset and still kind of in shock. I've never experienced this stuff before and it all happened so fast. I hate how I feel used and vulnerable and I hate that my pictures are gone.

I had a good cry and bought two chocolate bars but I am still praying for a miracle. I just want my pictures back. All my high school memories are on it and when I'm a mom I want to be able to show my kids my crazy outfits and things.. it just sucks.

Anne asked me this morning what emotions I was feeling and told me to except to feel a lot of different ones throughout these next few days. I tried to answer her question honestly but I came up with a simple "I don't know."

If three men can come into an office full of people and take whatever they want and get away with it, what power do I have? Is there anything I could have done? What if I stopped them- would they have hurt me? Were they armed? It just doesn't make me feel safe. It makes me miss home and makes me want to go back. Goodness, God really knows how to stretch me huh?

Two verses that haven't left my mind since this incident happened yesterday around 2pm are:

6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.


   19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

I am challenged by both of these verses and trusting God for a miracle. Jesus raised people from the dead, He can bring back my laptop!

Hope your week is going better than mine.

xo
Maddie

3 comments:

  1. I'm sorry this happened to you, it sounds pretty frightening and upsetting! I'm praying for your safety and inner peace for you! <3

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  2. Hi Maddie
    I'm sorry you've lost your laptop to someone who has no idea how much they've hurt you. And I know that if it is best for you, our Lord will find someway for it, or at least your pics, to be returned to you.
    One of the blessings of facebook is that all your pics posted there are still there. And I know when you ask all your friends and family to send you pics taken over the years there will have such an abundance, you will overflow with joy.
    I'm not sure why or how sometimes but I do know that ALL THINGS WORK TOGETHER FOR GOOD!! ALL THINGS, even a stolen laptop.
    Are your Mom & Dad going to get you another laptop? If they can't afford one for some reason, I have one, almost brand new, with skype on it sitting up in my room that I basically never use that I would be very happy to send to you, if they would pay the postage to get it there. Let me know ok.
    Love Bonnie xoxoxo

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  3. I am so sorry! Being stolen from makes you feel so violated and taken advantage of, so degraded. Stay strong in the knowledge that God has gently placed you exactly where He wants you, and that He hasn't left you there alone to handle the situations that arise. I'm praying for peace and a renewed joy for you!

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