10.17.2012

Blogging once again:)


Since returning home from Africa, I’ve had such a hard time expressing myself to my closest friends and family and trying to explain what I am feeling/going through.

Even though writing isn’t my strong suit, and grammar will always be difficult for me, writing gave me a voice, a venue to share my thoughts and feelings and forces me to process what is going on in my life. Because this has been a battle for me I’ve been thinking about blogging again, even if no reads it. It will provide me with an opportunity to process what is happening in my life and should encourage me to take time and reflect, even if it only teaches me how to express myself better. On average this fleshing out my thoughts into words leaves me with a fresh perspective and usually a grateful heart.

Since returning home from Africa my life has been rather boring. I am now a university student once again trying to get by in my classes and stressing as per usual. I am no longer hanging out with lions or riding elephants so there is not much to discuss on the blog, however after much thought of me not blogging I’ve decided to give it a try once again, for me.  Things you might read about on the blog is my ever passionate heart for social justice (I am off to the United Nations next week) and my relationship with Christ and many other topics that consume my mind that day when I sit to write.

Whether you check in to this blog often or never doesn’t really matter to me. Of course I would love for you to read it, but if my university life doesn’t appeal to you like my African experience did than there is no need to feel sorry.  I hundred percent understand! I was committed to blogging weekly in Africa but this time round I won’t make any promises up front. My time has been o so limited since returning home to sit down at my computer and blog but I believe I need this for me.

You see I haven’t been “okay” these past few months. I don’t know how to adequately define that any other way.  I feel like I’m living a dream, I’m extremely anxious and stressed and its hard for me to get up in the morning when this has usually never been a problem. I guess I could say I’m not happy.

I know life isn’t about my happiness but having JOY in Christ that doesn’t change by mere feelings and events. However, I am wrestling with this issue on how to experience that JOY better, to walk in it fully.

Blogging has come back to my mind many times because it so often made me realize how blessed I am. Blogging really does put things into perspective a lot of time.

So here I am, writing once again! We will see where this blog leads once more.

Would love to have you check in and follow this blog againJ

Blessings on the rest of your week

Maddie

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