Dear Jackson // Week Two

Dear Jackson,

Happy two weeks! I can't decide if these last two weeks have gone by fast or slow. For one it feels like we've been doing this thing together forever. Parenting feels so natural to me and I am just loving it so it's weird to think we've only been together fourteen days. On the other side, the lack of sleep and realization that I can never just pick up and leave has been a heavy thought and to think you are just two weeks old and I have a lifetime of cancelled plans and working around nap times and feeding schedules scares me a bit. So basically I am a basket case of emotions which I still consider normal since you are two weeks and we are figuring this all out. 

But Jackson, let me tell you that I adore you. Like fiercely am in love with every part of your tiny self. I know they say babies can't smile until 6-8 weeks but when I kiss your toes and sing songs to you, you totally smile and you aren't passing gas. Here is my proof :) 

You love being held. This has become interesting in the nights when you are sleeping when momma holds you but the moment I put you in the bassinet so I can sleep you stir and start to fuss. You don't really cry though and right now Dad and I are so blessed with this. You just like being held and if that is the worst I am dealing with right now I will take it. You love sleeping on Dad though and it makes my momma heart explode. He holds you on his chest and you just snuggle right in. All is ok in the world it seems when your Daddy is holding you. Honestly, Jackson you will never understand the love your Dad and I have for you and it's crazy to think that it took no time for me to feel this way about you.  

You are eating great and have changed so much this past week. From week one having to give you a bit of formula  because my milk wasn't coming in to this week where you just constantly are eating every couple of hours. At our two week midwife appointment you weighed 8 pounds 14 1/2 ounces. You gained over a pound in a week. Your face is so chunky now and I love it. You even are starting to get a mini roll on your thighs. I love baby rolls and am hoping those continue in the coming weeks. You are now latching great and you've gone two weeks without a pacifier. I have one bought and ready to use but I think we will try to prolong the soother as much as possible if you are just fussy and not crying.

I am a bit too scared to go out in public yet. It's hard for me to even drink a tea let alone get out of the house and I am still a bit hesitant. What if you need to feed when I'm in the middle of the grocery store? Do I just leave the cart and run to the car? ahahah... see my little worries. I will try to get more confident just give momma some time.

So you are stirring now and needing some loving, loving which I am so excited to give you! Jackson, thank you for making me a momma. It is the best calling and privilege to be your mom. I am so thankful that God entrusted you to us. We love you so much and love being your parents. Seriously, you are the best baby and we are so thankful for you.

I love you so much,


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