Dear Marlowe // Four Months

 Dear Marlowe,

Four months with you baby girl. Every month just gets better and better. You now smile at me every time I get you from your crib or talk to you. You follow everyone and when we put you in your chair you always do you sit ups -it really is your signature move at this point. You still have a very serious resting face but I fall more in love with you every day and in my opinion, each day you get cuter and cuter. 

Speaking of this month - the big news is that we transferred you to your room this month, into your crib and it was flawless. Transferring Jackson took weeks and so many tears so I was preparing for an all nighter when I laid your down in your dark room by yourself in a crib. First night: you slept the exact same and you've never looked back. I actually think you prefer your crib and your own space. Sometimes you like being by yourself instead of being held so this goes along with your personality perfectly. The only way I feel comfortable leaving you in your own room at three months is your Owlet. That heart rate monitor is the best gift ever. I can deep sleep knowing if something goes wrong an alarm will go off and notify us. Thank you Grandpa Charnuski for the Owlet that you gave Jackson and now is amazing for Marlowe!!

Your yeast infection just won't go away. This month we went to the Dr's three times trying to get rid of your thrush. You still feed ok, but to be honest I don't really remember what you did before, we've been dealing with this for over a month so I don't remember. You are eating though so that is all that matters. Really hoping this medicine works- I'm treating myself now because we are probably passing it back and forth - so let's hope baby girl that we get this taken care of.

You are wearing six month clothes which is wonderful that we haven't had to buy you new clothes this month. Good thing you have a baby cousin that is super tiny and will get good use out of all your clothes that you only wore once...maybe twice. Speaking of growing with all these Dr's appointments you get weighed lots. At four months you weigh 14 pounds 4.5 ounces.

You are a wonderful sleeper and are starting to develop patterns. You still take a nap within an hour of waking up and sleep for 45-60 minutes. Then I nap you every 2 hours or less. You feed every 2.5-3 hours and are a really content girl. You like to scream right before you fall asleep but it only lasts 5 minutes so I can handle it. We put you to bed anytime between 6:30-8pm and then you normally feed once anywhere between 1-4am and then again at 5-7am but you do a good six hour stretch which is wonderful. Because I am awake for your 5-7am feed I am only getting up once in the night and that is totally manageable because after the feed I place you in your crib, smile at you, tell you how much I love you, kiss your forehead and tuck your blanket around you and leave. You put yourself back to sleep which is amazing and most times I crawl back into bed and am able to go back to sleep.

You let your Daddy put you to sleep and still love your brother. You definitely put up with all Jackson's love and touch towards you. I constantly tell him that he needs to give you some space because his face is normally inches from you, but watching your relationship grow is one of my most favourite things. I know it won't always be this way - but wow, you amaze me how easy going you are... definitely have your Daddy's personality: )

The days are still long and the weeks are flying by. Can't believe you are four months old already. I am so grateful I get to be your Mom. When I rock you, I just pray over you - that you would know Jesus love for you- that you would experience Him and know that He is the very best thing. I dream about all the girl things we will get to together, I honestly get giddy thinking about everything we will get to do. You are my daughter and loved, cherished and prayed for. I couldn't love you more if I tried.

Oh and you found your toes at the very end of this month!:)

Thanks for a wonderful month,

Love your Momma

Dear Marlowe // Three Months

My Miss Marlowe,

This month has been so so good - much better for me than the first two. Nothing you have done or did but just your crazy Momma trying to figure out motherhood with two kiddos! First off, you are amazing. You have such a good temperament and go with the flow. Jackson demands and needs a lot of my attention during the day and for the first two months I felt so guilty about all of this but seeing your personality develop - you are quite happy to be sitting in your chair, watching Jackson and taking it all in. It doesn’t bother you if you I don’t hold you 24/7 - you actually prefer that I don’t. The whole nature/nurture debate amazes me as I process and learn more about you but as I get to see your personality more, we are coming into a good place and I know this will only get better and sweeter as we figure out some things.

The things I need to write down so I don’t forget:

At 12 weeks you weighed 12 pounds 15 oz

You will not take the bottle at all. I waited until 8 weeks to start trying because I didn’t want to deal with nipple confusion however I think I ruined you and if I could do it all over again I would introduce a bottle from day one. This has been the biggest stress on me and your Dad. I have committed to things that I am unable to take you with me for and you still won’t take the bottle. You also refuse a soother. Any time the bottle/soother anything other than me is placed before you, you start screaming. And it’s a mad cry. A cry, completely specific to when we ask you to take a bottle. Different people have tried, I’ve been out of the house, we’ve literally done ALL the tricks. Every morning I’m pumping and trying to give you a bottle and we spend a good hour each day crying. It is so exhauasting - you are exhausted and mad at me and I am almost in tears. Also, your brother has loved this because he normally gets the iPad every morning because I need to focus! My first wedding is August 11 and we are just praying and begging and trying to figure out how to do life if you don’t take a bottle and I am not around for the day!

Along the lines of food, you are a quick feeder. I am now feeding both sides and a full feed takes about 10 minutes including burbing you - you are a champ and that has been so amazing because I can get a lot done (and also Jackson doesn’t like when I feed so that is helpful)

Sleep  - you are doing really good in this area! Again, opposite of your brother! You will sleep for good chunks of time if I hold you and are doing 6 hour chunks in the evening. There even has been times where I will put you down around 10pm and you will sleep till 4 which is awesome. Then after food you head right back to sleep around 7-8am. There is no big sleep patterns for you yet but I know until four months your brain hasn’t developed those so I am pretty relaxed about your sleep. You still sleep in the lamb but we will be moving you to your own room and into the crib very shortly. We just have one trip back to Elmira first and then we will make the move. I always feel like the newborn haze slowly lifts when you move out of my room and into yours. Schedules and better rhythms can be made. Really looking forward to this into month three!!

The bond between you and your brother is growing and it is making my Momma heart so beyond happy. Jackson started calling you “Mar Mar” and loves to get you and play with you. He goes up to your lamb and says “Mar Mar hiiiiiiiiiii” in his high pitched voice and you give him the biggest smile. It is so precious and I want to capture these moments forever, but I know I will forget them too soon. You smile and coo and don’t spit up as much. You love sitting in the green chair and you try to sit up ALL the time. It honestly looks like you are doing sit ups all day every day in your chair. You follow me around when I’m making dinner and you can see across the room now when we come in.

You are forced to do a lot because Jackson wants you to be apart of his everyday taks (bedtime routine, praying before meals etc) and you don’t cry and obliged.

I am so excited to continue to learn about you and see your personality grow. We’ve bonded so much better this month with all the news ways you interact and I feel like you and me are getting our rhythms down. I know your cries and when you need sleep (every 2 hours or less- and when you first wake up in the morning you can’t stay awake for more than an hour). All of this learning has made me a better Momma and been able to keep you happier. Your witching hours have ended in the evening and all is going good.

I thank Jesus for you baby girl. All throughout the day. I know you are His and His love for you is more than I could every imagine. I know He adores you and will take care of you. I pray and beg the Lord that you would know His love and experience it at such a young age. I really believe there is no “Jr Holy Spirit” and even though you are little I think about it all the time. God has great plans for you and He uses children for His plans and Kingdom. I can’t wait to see you learn about Him and understand His deep affection for you.

We love you Miss Marlowe! Happy 3 Months my sweetheart


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